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*little boy*
i'm a grown man
said a little boy
with a smirkish grin
my hairs all wet
from the shower
i havent had quite yet
take a nap with me
me and only me
my hair sticks up
like none u've ever seen
I like to play with
cars and toys
those are things
for little boys
he turned around and said to me
but I'm still a grown man u see
(A poem for a certain wild haired tell me tell me)
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Let's see last night everyone wanted to go out. So we went out around 11 and ended up going to a frat party at state. Now usually u have to be 21 to drink at these things but the brothers (the members of the frat) at the door thought we were cute so they stamped us with an ok thing. It was a fucking huge ass party. At first I was a little bored with it, b/c all ppl were doing was playing beer pong and doing keg stands....and well I am not a beer type of girl. I like shots. Then two brothers brought out THE LUGE!!!!!!!! For the uninformed the luge is this block of ice cut to form pathways and they pour a drink down it and u drink as much as u can in a shot. Well they brought it out and Joy jumped at the chance to get some of that, and then I did too...that is what did it for me....*LoL* I didnt get super drunk or anything that would take a couple of rounds...but rather I got tipsy *LoL* Around 3 or 4 or something we had to go back home so somebody drove, not really sure who b/c I ended up falling asleep I think it was Ber though. I dunno. I got home and just went to sleep.
Well last night Jase and Corey got drunk with some Cody guy at Jase's house. But thing is, I get soooooo jealous of that b/c I'd really like to go to the GB with Jase and meet the ppl he chills with there. One day I guess, during the summer most likely. But yeah, it sounds stupid but I get jealous about it. *LoL*
Well, this week stressed me out, the closer it gets to year end exams, the more stressed I am apt to get ya know???? I fucking hate how aggrevating it is...I cant wait to get out high school and get done with college and be done with that shit. Really it pisses me off....I hate going to school b/c all I want to do is teach 5 year olds and these fuckfaces feel I need Algebra 2 to teach 1,2,3 and various other numbers to kids..C'mon gimme a break...Oh fucking well.
Yesterday my grampa came with his fiancee and thing is I am not extremely cool with my grampa b/c his ex-wife Jerri hated my mom so she didnt want my grampa to have anything to do with my dad, mom or anyone else. So I spent 10 years with no grampa in my life. And just last year he thought he could come breeze into our lives and it'd be ok. well it wasnt, b/c while my brothers couldnt understand it, I knew full well what was up. I feel bad in a way b/c he is old and he is my grampa but in the same aspect I dont like that he let that stupid bitch control his life to the extent he pretended we werent there for 10 long years. It sickens me. It pisses my dad off to know I feel this way but honestly...what does he expect??? Then again he thinks I should join the airforce so his opinion doesnt really count anymore.
Tonight the girls wanna go to the Gamma Alpha Gamma party and if we go to it, there will be drinking and drugs and in all honesty...I dont know if I need to slip back into the casual drugs lifestyle, when I pulled myself out of that shit, I know how I get when I start back up with the partying, I get overly independent, treat everyone like shit, and I am horrible....Maybe someone will call and get me out of it. I am reading what I just wrote and I guess it wouldnt make sense unless the reader's been a partier...and I dunno man.
Last night was kind of fucked up in a way my friend fucked the 2nd random guy this week. Sad thing is....they were black and her parents dont want her dating black guys so she says her loophole is by fucking them she isnt dating them and therefore isnt breaking any rules....that kind of logic scares me.....She is turning into a slut (if she isnt already) then again, most of my friends are pretty slutty, and I am glad I am committed b/c I dont gotta worry about that shit.
I sometimes worry about another girl coming and taking Jase away from me, but I know he wouldnt let that happen. And I think I'd kill the bitch before it could....*LoL* I am very posessive of my boyfriend....I dont like other girls touching him or hanging on him or anything....b/c they could have less than noble intentions...and then I'd flip the script.
Like that bitch Christy....she un nerves the hell out of me. I dunno if this makes me insecure or right but I do know that this bitch wants Jase and was in his neighborhood the other day and b/c Jase is a boy he doesnt get that she was probably there hoping to see him (girls out there yall know what I mean....) and I know she is pissed he dont want her which increases her drive for him (the old wanting what u cant have theory) and in which case makes her try to be in his view....AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I'll slit that bitches' throat if she tries to lay finger one on my man....I'd take her and any other bitch who would try to take Jase away from me....period....
Enough of that I am getting an adrenaline rush lol...ttyl sign the gb yall!