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"I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when your looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."
-When Harry Met Sally
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Aight yall let's do tha weekend update...
*FrIdaY* Kim and Monica still aint home and their moms called me and asked questions. End of Friday.
*SaTuRdaY* Mom left the house. Good I hate her. And then Jase came to Fayetteville. I left the house and my stupid bitch mom told my bro to give me the money out her purse cuz she dont trust me. Fuck her. And then I left. We went to McDonalds and ate. Then we went to the theater to get our Matrix Reloaded tickets. Line was forever long and finally we got the tix. We were going to the 10:30 show. After that we went to the mall and looked around. After that Corey had work so he went on his way. Then Jase and I went "our place" and he brought the letters...to those of you who dont know I have a sick obsession with being better than his ex-g/f Christy. So I started reading them it was like a slow torture for me, but I had to do it. She wrote things like sweetheart, and I love you and shit. And it boiled my blood....as I read each letter I tore it up..then I got to one letter and it said something one it that set me off. I started crying and shit and then after a long calming myself down....Jase and I made up (we werent fighting but now I felt better b/c that girl is immature and cant spell and stuff so I felt better)...then we played this game with ice and like running it all over each other's bodies and then we had sex and it was nice...then we were messing around and right before he went down on me Corey called...URGHHHHHHHH!!!! *lol* Then we went to go to the movie and then *whoo whoo* a cop pulled us over. They told him he was going 70 in a 55 and that was such a fuckin lie b/c he really wasnt and he got a $125 dollar ticket. Then we saw the movie. It was like maximum security up in there. There was a check in to get in, to get to the door, and in the room itself...GHETTO!!! That was a forever long movie. And then afterwards we went home.
*sUndAy* Jase came and picked me up. Then we went over to Papa John's and Corey made us a pizza. After that we went to the mall and walked around. I saw this cute lil skirt at Hot Topic and might get it. (???) And then we brought Corey back home and then went to "our place" and kissed and hugged....hee hee..PLEASE yall know better than to think that was all we did....We fucked on the hood of his car from behind (it was sooooo bad ass...) Then it started drizzling, so we went in the car and continued our thang...it felt really good..I also think this is in part to the new condoms we tried (the ribbed kind) and after that we just cuddled...It was really really nice...I love being with him.
I am no longer worried about that girl Christy. I told him those letters would be closure on the whole Christy thing. I mean I already know my emotional and intellectual intelligence levels are higher than hers. (Even if this diary portrays me as otherwise). I mean all her notes talked about being "mean" to people by talking behind their backs...reading those notes made me think of middle school where everybody talks behind everybodies backs and has drama over everything. It was just a tad ridiculous...Then she was *ALWAYS* sick...Ok..I know I am always a bitch but I seriously think it is IMPOSSIBLE to be sick that often...She even called herself baby girl (Oh my god shoot me now) It was just so fuckin childish...She misspelled everything (this seems like a small detail but I have a thing about spelling sometimes and this girls' was horrible) she called him sweetheart...nope nope nope..and then she wrote "I love you to!" <--- here is my whole spelling thing....it is supposed to say, "I love you too!" As in also, not as in her version... I cant believe I got bent out of shape over someone that fucking stupid. I made her out to be really perfect in my head and what I got was something very different to that..Thank God, if she was that perfect I dunno how I would've felt... He only used her to make me jealous b/c James was trynna holla..When I was crying in the car at first, he kept apologizing and stuff...I may just be imagining this but it looked like he was tearing up 2...he told me he loved me and only me forever...I believe it with my whole heart...Yesterday made me realize I was such an ass for actually thinking that he'd choose her over me...I love him soooo much. I saw it in his eyes...that look that cant be explained but sums up a persons' feelings all at once. That look made me positive that I have nothing to worry about....
I am telling yall things are just trippy these days. I just cant wait to get the fuck outta my house. My dumb ass mom has more drama than a high schooler and more violence than a massacre...she is crazy...my brothers just piss me off and my dad aint never here and when he is...we arent gonna go there.
Well Jase is telling his parets about his ticket...let's the outcome. ttyl sign the g/b