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This entry will be pretty pointless, only 2 (well soon enough 1) days til my birthday...my bitch of a mother is going to try to ruin it mind you just b/c she is an bitter washed up hag.
She is sitting right now, ONE ROOM AWAY FROM ME, talking shit on me with my aunt and believe you me, my aunt takes personal pleasure in bagging on me ever since I called her a bitch when that big throw down happened with my mom in May or whenever...Oh well I just cant stand her...
However within the past three days I have read the 3 most recent Harry Potter books, I for some reason cant get enough of those damn books....They just make my life seem a little easier, too bad there really isnt like a wizardry school, I think I actually would try to get in....
Hmm today I woke up to my mom playing that satanic Alan Jackson shit, I mean the woman had it so loud it woke me up and she bitches at me?!?!?!?! Umm...right...Then I got up and took that crest night stuff off, it actually works better than the white strips...And promptly began the New HP book, and it is very very good. I didnt eat anything most of the day b/c my mom has NO FOOD that is appealing to me. I got a purse with Princess Diana on it and heard my mom talking about getting me a necklace from the "Lost and Found" Line from Tiffany's, which in case you didnt know has the engravery "If found please return to Tiffanys and Co" and limited #ed. Not too bad eh??? Well my brothers have been wearing my nerves thin lately and when I am sick and trying to fucking read a book I'd like a little piece and quiet. then I ended up getting in a fight with Kyle and I got a few scratches on him, where he however, almost broke my arm...(My Dad must quit teaching him all those fucking karate moves, he is far too unstable to even be trying to do the stuff)... and who got in trouble?!?!?! ME! Well I got pissed flipped my mom the bird and tried to return to my conversation with Jason....OH NOOOOOOOO that bitch felt the need to come in my room, bitch at me, and oh yeah decide to destroy my birthday plans, well it didnt effect me like she wanted it too, b/c I ended up retorting with, "Well then I will just move out, b/c I can do that now"...and she flipped. Then tried to be nice, but I am a vindictive bitch these days and just wasnt having it. She then proceeded to announce that I was just her "bad child" and "everything was all my fault" I had no idea my mere presence was enough to send her into that...
Jason tried to calm me down, and then my brother came into my room and announced my opinion no longer mattered to the family b/c I would be leaving in less than a year...I should've hit him, but I didnt feel like it...my family treats me like absolute shit and buys me stuff in a form of weak apology. I dont get them. It's like my mom doesnt know how much she can get on my nerves in like a second...
And I have some mystery allergic reaction to something so I am broke out in hives everywhere....URGH!
Oh but I did something good this week, I told off that little bitch Tina of whom I've despised for so long, I loath that girl with a venom so poisonus it could kill without even making contact with a person....(did I mention I am in a class with her next year ha ha ha ha)Yet I dont know why...Maybe it is the fact she is a lying backstabbing bitch, I really just dont know anymore. It felt good to be cruel to her, I have so much pent up hatred in my body I need to just get rid of it...
I get to see my boyfriend saturday...YAY!!! We are going to see that new 28 days later movie and out to eat then I get to go stay a few nights at his place. His place is so different than my house..OMG it's like a parallel world. His mom treats me like a princess, his brother is a nice guy, and they have nice pets, and a house that gives off a laid back vibe, nobody jumps down anybodies throat there and I mean he gets to go and drive his car whenever he wants, and I mean DAMN... my house is the opposite..oh yeah since I've gotten my car back I've driven it a total of ZERO TIMES!!!! Yeah....great stuff...it's pissing me off even though I dont really have anywhere to go...lol.
I am not even looking forward to my senior year, something I've worked hard for....I just dont care for it...it's merely an obstacle to getting out of my house...I cant stand being in high school, god the drama alone would make one want to drop out...I hate being there it feels it I dunno...a waste of time...And then college NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! I hate school, I dont like going, I dont like being there....Man this year wil suck, hopefully it will fly by so I dont have time to realize it is even around...then will come my 18th birthday and I will be freed of the reins my parents got me on..Oh to see the looks on their faces when I tell them I am leaving and will be back when I feel like it....too not have to beg and plead to take my car out...oh yes I can taste it. To leave my house and move in with Jason with the most triumphant blaze!!!!!!! MWHAHAHAHA.....oh please let it come soon.....
Oh yes did I mention that I am getting 2 dogs??? Labs...I personally wanted a girl to name Sprinkles...but my fucker parents got boys, I named one Yogi Bear and it better love me...lol and the other is called Zeus (I dont like that name..) I have been pining for a dog since I lost my beloved and LOYAL only friend Mako back last august...she died for ignorant reasons, even if she was 11...my dad wasnt home and my mom doesnt drive and wouldnt allow me to bring her to the vet, b/c of her stupid paranoia...Finally after begging and pleading...we got her to the vet, she was becoming anemic and needed a blood transplant, the vet told us it'd be expensive and would only buy her maybe another year and wouldnt be worth it...I never cried so hard...then they found those worms in her blood....and that I believe is the real reason she died, and I've despised my mom ever since for not putting her foolish fear aside and not letting me bring her sooner....