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So much has happened...well I get to see the killers at the house of blues in myrtle beach on june 10th....yesss! Umm what else...Jason and I are looking at finally getting our own apartment now..I can't believe it. I was reading all of my old entries from like junior year in high school to like..now and I have changed alot. It is also very sad though....most of those friends I wrote about either did not graduate or are knocked up and in cheating relationships. I can actually say I am the only one who got out relatively unscathed. I also have gotten a lot better about my depression. When I left that town my whole view on life changed and it has been an extremely long time since one self harming thought has crossed my mind. My relationships with family members has improved a tremendous deal...I still have a lot of sex with my adorable boyfriend...but now it is more quality not quantity...I no longer want to be a teacher, it is sad because I love children but, things change. I cant watch what I have seen as an intern for the rest of my life. Most parents are neglectful and emotionally just not there for there children and it breaks my heart. I guess the one incident that really ended that was when I found out one of my students were being abused in every form possible and the school sat back and did nothing because the parents were influential figures in the community. So now I am going to study for a ph.d in clinical psychology to understand why people are the way I was, and maybe help parents stop hurting their children. Yes I have matured...